I’m tired of being bitter and angry.

I want to forgive both of you, to put this behind me and just move on so maybe I can fix our friendship, and stop hating her.

But I just can’t.

You and I don’t talk, and I don’t want to initiate a conversation because I feel like I’m being annoying and clingy or obnoxious.

And I just don’t trust her. Not after what she did. I don’t trust her around my boyfriend, I don’t trust her talking to him, I don’t tell her anything personal, I just don’t have any trustworthiness left for her at all.

I don’t want to live like this, though.

I’m tired of being so mad all the time, and sad.

If I could just get past this, things would be better, right?

But I can’t. I am stuck in this fucking hole of bitterness and anger and hatred, and it’s tearing me apart.

A person isn’t supposed to keep this much inside. It eats away at a you. Just like it’s doing to me.

And I can’t do anything without facing some major issues and overdue arguments that I just don’t feel like having, and it’s just not worth it.

So I guess I’ll keep my mouth shut like always.