February 2012
43 posts
And maybe I’m so fucking bitter and angry at you both because seeing cute pictures of you two hurts. It makes me feel like that could’ve been me.
But she took that and now I’ll never know. I’ll never know if you could’ve looked at me that way or loved me that way or just given me the time of day.
I love you and I don’t want to anymore and I’m sad and...
My number’s all over facebook. So why can’t you text me? But I shouldn’t be surprised. We never talk. We never hang out.
You said at the beginning of all this that you didn’t want it to ruin our friendship, and that I was too good of a friend to let that happen.
Obviously, that was a bunch of bullshit.
Can’t you see I’m still hurt? When we all hung out, was...
Just stop please.
I don’t wanna hear about you and him anymore.
It fucking hurts, okay.
it literally feels like someone is just ripping open a closed wound, over and over and over again.
I get it. He’s yours and you have a great relationship and you love him oh so much and you win, okay.
I would give up anything to never have to hear you talk about him ever again.
Can’t you...
please please please don’t tell me that you love me tomorrow.
you said you have something big planned and everyone knows about it and they all think it’s gonna be adorable and great and all that.
but just please, let it be anything other than those three words.
because I don’t know if I’ll be able to say them back.
how do you tell someone you love them, when...
You say you never complain about your parents, but you do. You bitch about them on facebook all the time.
You say you never complain about your life, but you do. All the damn time.
So don’t sit around talking about how you’re all high and mighty because you “don’t ever complain,” because you do.
And excuse me if I don’t have any sympathy for you or any of the...
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Every time I’ve ever said I love you, or just loved a person period, things never work out.
And I think that’s why I’m so scared.
I said I love you to VJ. He was the first one, and he left me in the end for someone prettier, funnier, and just all around better than me.
I said I love you to Matt. He broke up with me for Jenny, and then when we got back together, I fucked things...
I want to die.
Every single day.
And sometimes, I feel like I could almost do it. I could almost get the courage to just fucking do it.
But then I remember something or someone, and I just, can’t.
And I hate myself for that.
I am a failure.
I can’t hurt myself right, I can’t be happy, I can’t even get up the fucking courage to just do it.
And I’m tired of...
January 2012
125 posts
Seeing you today was so hard. It hurt and you guys were holding hands and actually acting like a couple for the first time in front of me, and I mean, that’s to be expected, but it just hurt. Like, physically hurt my heart.
And then Sara told me that my trainer at work called me stupid and that just made me feel like shit about myself, and now I just really wanna wrap myself in all my...
You’re visiting school tomorrow.
It’ll be the first time I’ll see you since October.
And I really don’t know if I’m mentally or emotionally prepared.
But I mean, I could handle it back in October at my birthday.
This just feels different, though.
You coming back, I mean. We shared so many memories in those hallways, in those classrooms, throughout that entire...
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And now you’ve grown up with this notion that you were to blame, And you seem so strong sometimes, but I know that you still feel the same. As that little girl who shined like an angel, even after his lazy heart put you through hell. I wish you could see that. Still you try to impress him, but he never will listen. Oh broken angel, were you sad when he crushed all your dreams? Oh broken...
I’m not kidding, you need like, anger management or something.
You grabbed my arm so hard this morning when you were trying to wake me up that I have a bruise where you grabbed me.
That’s not fucking okay.
I understand getting frustrated, because I’m definitely not easy to wake up in the mornings, but that doesn’t give you any right to leave any kind of mark on my at...
I’m tired of being bitter and angry.
I want to forgive both of you, to put this behind me and just move on so maybe I can fix our friendship, and stop hating her.
But I just can’t.
You and I don’t talk, and I don’t want to initiate a conversation because I feel like I’m being annoying and clingy or obnoxious.
And I just don’t trust her. Not after what she...
